Lisa suggested that we craft bloggers write what our blogs mean to us: why we blog, what has changed about our blog, etc. And I've been thinking about that a lot in the past couple of weeks, so although she doesn't know me or my blog (I don't think), I am going to participate anyway.
I've had the privilege of working with some amazingly talented people. I left my job after Bebe was born, but until then I was incredibly fortunate to love my job, enjoy my colleagues, and to find a great deal of inspiration in going to work every day. The decision to leave my job and stay home with the baby was an especially difficult one for me for precisely this reason. And for months after I left I felt isolated: what would I do without the community I had come to reply upon?
I once responded to Todd, who has been blogging for nearly 1 1/2 years now and was teasing me that something he did proved he was smarter than me, that I was in fact the smarter one because I didn't spend my time blogging. But after reading/lurking around several other craft blogs (Loobylu, Erica Mulherin) for many years now, I realized this past summer that I wanted to be part of this group of creative people. I needed the contact with other crafters in order to stay inspired, motivated, and to keep myself going without the regular interaction with my work colleagues.
However, joining this group of bloggers hasn't been everything I had hoped, and over the past few weeks I've been struggling with some disappointment regarding my blog. I'm writing for myself, yes, but I had hoped for more interaction with other bloggers as well. There are 66 feeds in my Bloglines account - which means that I'm reading and often commenting on 66 other blogs. So I find inspiration reading and commenting on other blogs, but I'm not getting the feedback I had hoped for my own. And I know I shouldn't expect comments. But the interaction was what kept me going at work and what I hoped to establish by blogging. I see it happening on other blogs and I sometimes wonder what I'm doing wrong. Is it that I'm not selling things? I haven't created a site that encourages group participation (the "_-along")? My stuff isn't that interesting or creative? Is there just no room in the craft blogosphere for yet another blogger?
And then I try to remind myself that a) I've only been doing this for a few months, b) I know my family and friends are reading this even if they aren't commenting and certainly shouldn't feel obligated to comment and c) I do receive comments from a number of people and I really appreciate those comments!
I don't always reply to comments, but I love love love reading them! So I will continue to blog and will continue to enjoy reading and commenting on other blogs. And I will enjoy the comments that I receive. If more comments come my way as well, that's great. I hope that eventually I will find that network I'm craving. Maybe it will be via my blog and maybe I'll find it elsewhere. But for now, here I am.